It just Not my F***** day!

my life was screwed up! and fucked up, everything goes wrong!
yesterday was an important day! but i screwed it up! i can't paddel well. and all those stuff i'm not blaming anyone, i just feel that i'm super noob and screwed! MAN!
i really want to Be Strong and Good! i really want it! no matter what it cause. i want to be in the team! i want to win and all.

i know life is up and down but wht must on that day? this is seriously fucked up. i nv so angry with myself before. i just feel i'm really useless. GOSH,,

and today i'm falling real sick and cant go for the final paddeling! man just whats have went wrong with me?!! screw me!