Track of my life

Giving up

2009-08-11T02:48:00.002+08:00

Out of so many wishes.... somehow i only waiting for the wishes that come out from your mouth?
is that really that hard? what am i to you?

I try all my might to keep this relationship workout, but somehow.. only me alone who try to work it out. i'm tired.

i starting to giving up for trying..... think what you want.. and get back to me. i ain't gonna do shit anymore. if this really the end then let it be.

at least i tried. i know i give all my best.

what a birthday surprise. . . FML.

Love = Love? or Love = yourself?

2009-07-29T13:46:00.005+08:00

Should love = love?
meaning should he or she love you equally the same as how you love them?
should you love yourself more? or your partner?

To me, i love her but i love myself as well, i care about her but on the other hand i do care a lot about myself as well.. so which one i belong to? love her more or myself?

I don't know..
I'm still trying and see how far can i go just for her... but for now she is the only person i care most right after my family and my buddies.

well just random thought of mine, haha..
anyway we presented our fyp already today at 10AM and manage to get the codes works, thank you guys, for these past 13 weeks.. just love you guys "jia le ting" and "wo wei shanny"

Hugs and love

2009-07-28T00:39:00.002+08:00

Okay guys, do you guys like to be hug by other?

to tell you i'm totally in love it! i love it, when my dad hug me (of course he soldom do it, in fact he only did it like once?) i feel so secure as if even the whole world collapse he will be there for me,

If i could hug my mom i bet it's going to be nice.. but too bad she is gone but still i still remember i manage to hold her hand before she left us..,

My step-mom? well i love her.. and she hug me like once also, i feel awkward but well i like the feeling, she is the woman that i love and respect most after my mom.

and lastly, my girl.... i feel so good and great when she hug me from the back, (I know what are you guys thinking it's not that "part" okay! haha), It's the feeling, i feel peace, calm, secure and love at the same time.

Question for me,

Kiss or Hugs?

well i'm a greedy person, i want it both! if well. i love to kiss on her forehead and smell her! haha.. it make me feel good(do take note i'm not a pevert okay).

Luck? where are you?

2009-07-21T13:58:00.004+08:00

Well this is sooo f***ed up, i lost my phone yesterday.

YES i lost it, and guess how i lost it?

I don't even know, only 2 possiablity:

1.While i'm having something,, you know what i mean. i drop inside the toilet bowl (rate 70%)

2.I drop in the toilet and some lucky brat pick it up (rate 30%) -.-

I was damn screwed, my mom nag+scold+nag+scold again and again on the phone.. well it was really my bad, for not taking a good care of my belongings.

She warn me if i'm lost my phone again, she ain't going to buy for me anymore, YES no more -.-

i got no options left but have to agree with her, and i really feel bad for that.

I been spending too much, way too much already. i should really learn how to save. sigh..

any tips?

so yeah.. forget about the bad thing happen to me.. move on to some good news.

i got myself a blackberry bold. whee yaaa chopp kapow!!.. (i still feel bad okay).

and i'm like an ice age man who trying to use high tech phone, took me almost 6 hours how to use the functions and stuffs -.- ..

to someone.. i miss you badly. i wish i could spend more time with you.

the only thing i want is "Time". more time with you =)

Determinations!

2009-07-14T02:02:00.002+08:00

Okay, after months of resting and staying in the comfort zone.

It's time for me to hit to the gym again, yeah! welcome,, for entering the zone of no life again.

i want to get back in shape i been looking like shit recently cause of the mass gainning and my tummy look huge now.

it's time to cut and be big and lean! haha =)) cheers..

Welcome "EF 17-40mm F/4 L"

2009-07-08T00:53:00.004+08:00

Welcome to my house lens =)) haha

just got this dope with jeffry at Ms colour, i really hope this lens can serve me well..

If cant suit my shooting style i will just sell it away next month.. so pls pls serve me well k? haha..

Btw i just uploaded my new picture in to my facebook so yeah.. perhaps you guys will be kind enough to click on the link and drop some comment? haha=)

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=7554332&id=514835397&ref=mf

So here by now! i'm telling you guys. everything is solved! my romance life is solve and guess what?

happy endinggg... well it's not really end! but yeah for this chaper is closed.

the new chapter will begin soon, it's a tough and long road i need to face with this person whom i love and i adore most =)

well let's pray hope everything will be fine =)

Song of the day

Sean kingston - fire burning

Stalker? huh? YES! haha

2009-07-06T01:14:00.003+08:00

Omg, i can't believe it.

I'm actually stalking this girl from youtube? HUH? YES! i can't believe it! i just did it.

But seriously she got the voice, skill and of course she look cute to me. haha.. I GOTTA stop this lol.. this is my first time and gonna be my last time to stalk someone! haha..

here is the video: enjoy

PS: i found this video in facebook, someone post it. i cant remember who.

Tossing it high and just let it go

2009-06-30T21:41:00.003+08:00

Okay, i watch transformer again.... Megan fox is smokinggg hottt! haha okk okk.. i should stop.
so yeah.. sharing time again..

Morrie said:
"Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do"
"Accept the past as past without denying it and discarding it"
"Learn to forgive yourself and forgive others"

Well for me, i tried to follow what morrie said. It's hard to do but i will try and somehow i no longer feel sorry for myself.
Okay as a human being it's alright for you to feel pity on yourself, like you slip the chances in your life, and stuffs. But only for awhile cause you still got a life to lead. I believe you don't want to live in the sorrow right?

So when after you feel sorry for yourself, perhaps shed a few tears. You need to get back on your feet and be ready to get on to your journey.

It's hard to forgive others, But it's even more harder to forgive yourself. so you need to forgive yourself before you learn how to forgive others. I learn it in the hard way, and i realize, i already forgive myself for being such an ass and messed up my life in the past.

I'm trying to lead a new life here :).

It's hard for me but i try to move on now from the past, but it doesn't mean i total forget about the past. The past will still be the past and it will still be a part of my memories. Either is a bad one or good one is my choice. And decided to think it's a good one. life is already hard to lead so what is the point to make it harder? haha..

I don't feel sorry for what i'm now but i'm proud of who i'm now and thinking of what should i do to my life and so on.

Everything is on your hand, it's your own choice ;)

Lost love still love

2009-06-29T01:02:00.002+08:00

I just finished my book..
Seriously it's a nice book, "The five people you meet in heaven". i was a bit slow. some of you might have read this book, but well just to share with you guys how i i feel after reading the book =)

it said:
"Lost love still love, it takes a different forms, that's all. You can't see theirs smiles or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken. another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it."

Finally i see it through. It's not really the end of every thing,
It's a lost love but still love, it take different angle to see it. For some might not be able to see it, but eventually you can see it in the end, it take times.
It's not about the out come of the love but it's the process of the love. even though things might not ended up what you want but at least you still have the memories with you.
I know i was loved by you and i love you too, that's enough. Thanks for your love.

just my 2 cents =) hope it make senses.

I'm continue with another book called Tuesday with Morrie, well it written by same writer Mitch albom.

Song of the day
The fray - How to save a life

Free

2009-06-27T02:16:00.002+08:00

Don't ask me how and why, i don't even know.

This morning i woke up, i got a very weird feeling. I feel great and happy. it's like everything is solved and my brain prompt me this weird lines
"It's okay to be sad, but there is a limit. if it yours it will be your in the end, let it go. And be happy"
i feel like 10000kg burden has gone with in a night.

But of course that doesn't mean my feeling towards you has gone. it's still remain the same and firm!! and it doesn't mean i give up already. i'm still trying all the best i could to hold you back again.

Ok, school got 18 cases of H1N1. i call my mom(step mom), told her i'm not going to school due to the virus and stuffs and she say okay to me.
seriously i a bit reluctant to go school when my friends told me that school got H1N1 cases. cause i don't like to be quarantine, because its damn bored!

No internet and stuffs! can't be i play "Hide and seek with other patients right?" . lol...

I went to skate park with benedic to take picture of some skater. i got some good picture to share =) hope you guys like it, and as usuall keep the C&C coming in my tag blog.

cheers =)

Song of the day
Susan boyle - I dreamed a dream

Hope

2009-06-25T15:19:00.002+08:00

You make me wanna hold you till the morning rise.
You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night

Kill the hope that i have if you can't feel it.

If you can't feel it, i beg you help me move on. even though it's really hurt me a lots.

Just kill and end my hope.

Song of the day
Blue - You make me wanna

Hiding regrets in the smile

2009-06-25T00:00:00.009+08:00

To some this might be the sweetest simle i ever put on my face. But to me, its like i'm putting a mask on. i'mn putting all my regrets in my smile

i fought my way through the wall

but haven't gone pass it all

it's hard for me because there is no one to turn to.

The peace seams far away But i believe on day i will see the light

I will try to be strong, i try to be strong.

am i really okay? will i ever be fine? will i able to see hope?

How long can i hold this feeling? how long more i can endure this pain that killing me day by day?

i wish i could have a pain killer that can make me feel better.

can you really feel me, or you should've just tell me go off?

i really want to hold on, and dont wish to let go.

Song of the day

David choi - Hold on

I messed up really bad

2009-06-23T01:19:00.003+08:00

Now i know i messed up bad

It really hurt me every single day

i'm dying to let you know

i feel so bad, i feel so bad that you 're gone

We are in love for a reason and now you 're leaving

i know that now you are leaving and words won't bring you back

i'm here to say i'm sorry and ask for 2nd chance.

and i ask for nothing but want you back

i didn't mean to create problem for you. but i just want to let you know how i feel

i'm in a mess now like seriously. i messed up my life badly.

sorry if my post sounds down, i need time to fix myself.. i need a super duper big bandage to warp me around and fix me up

if i could sleep away this problem things will be great and come to an end.

Song of the day

state of shock - Best i ever had

High way of regrets..

2009-06-21T02:39:00.005+08:00

I know you have made up your mind

but i would never do you wrong

i've know it from the moment that we met

no doubt in my mind where you belong.

i'd go hungry

i'd go black and blue

i'd go crawling

down the avenue

no, there's nothing

that i wouldn't do

to make you feel my love

How am i suppose to make you feel my love?

This is really a down point of my life ever, i wonder can i ever see hope again.

i send my little prayer everysingle night just hoping that one day you can feel my love.

They say this is deep and meaningless, But to me this is the only thing i can do..

Lover or lover?

2009-06-20T15:39:00.002+08:00

There is 2 kind of lover

1st lover will shag with you till late night and leave you like a thief in the middle of the night.

2nd lover will shag withy ou till late night and cuddle you to sleep till the next morning.

which one do you guys prefer?

well i prefer to be a 2nd lover and to have a 2nd lover as well..

Song of the day

Adlee - make you feel my love.

Past

2009-06-19T09:54:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went to watch ghost of the girlfriend past, Highly recomended! some part of the story line really simillar like "The game" (A book).

It remind of me about the past. LOL

there is this line said that "To get over him, you need someone new that you can love and care"

should i do the same thing as well? but i don't think it easy to do so. i mean i hardly meet someone that really can make me love and care about them.

welll oh well cheers.

Let the rain wash away the trails you left behind

2009-06-18T14:03:00.003+08:00

Terus melangkah melupakanmu
belah hati perhatikan sikapmu
jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
kucoba untuk terus menjauh
perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
kucoba untuk lanjutkan itu

engkau bukanlah segalaku
bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
usai sudah semua berlalu
biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

terus melangkah melupakanmu
belah hati perhatikan sikapmu
jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

One of my fav song

Home sick

2009-06-18T00:50:00.001+08:00

Hurraayyy my dad is here today.

even though we don't really talk but i love him. do you love your dad as well?

well he is here for god-grandma funeral. tomorrow will be the last day for grandma. hope you can find peace in another world.

well to be honest i'm not really that sad

1. i'm not v close

2. she is 90!! before she left she told us not to be sad and DO NOT cry for her. so yeah..

May God be with you.

But too bad i can't meet my dad. i wanted to meet him because my allowence running low now! haha.... ok.. ok.. but to be honest when i see my relative in singapore it really make me feel like home.

i used to eat indonesian food ev sunday when i was international school. i enjoy my time with them, most of them from korean, vietnam, china, taiwan, thailand, greece etc etc.. it really make me feel like home when i hang out with them, perhaps they are foreigner and we share a common among us haha...

kindda home sick but i'm used to it already been stay far far away from my parents since i was 8 or 10 can't really remember. haha...

Song of the day

Feels like home = ten2five

Book Book and time time

2009-06-16T15:48:00.005+08:00

I guess time to read up my book, called "The game". Guys do find this book really good stuffs. It's about life and stuffs..

Btw the whole point of my blog is talk about life. to inspire and share with readers what i feel and not pint pointing anyone.. so don't take it so seriously.
i still miss my time with you and do not wish to make it ugly, i just need time to sort things out. no matter what i still enjoy and miss the good old time with you.

I might sounds like a loser but better than i pretend to be strong while i'm "not", well at least for now i'm not.. Just to let you know even though it's over, somehow i still miss you and there is time i still think about the good time we had. =).

cheers..

I believe i can fly, oneday

2009-06-16T10:29:00.007+08:00

PLS click this link for better quality pictures http://the-unperfect.deviantart.com/art/i-believe-i-can-fly-125916169

Another shoots i took during the photo marathon with jeff..
i dont know why i just can't resize the picture. and it look so blurish now! ughhh..

well oh well,,, i really hope i can shoot more in the future! haha..

Btw guys do you guys believe in karma?
well to me is no, there is no such thing as karma. You just miscalculate your steps only.
according to "The game(It's a book)" it said "Do not think of karma cause they ain't exist in this world. just do a better calculation in your steps." .. so don't be so superstitious believe in such thing as karma.

cheers.
Song of the day
Greenday - Do you know your enemy

Night + macro + shag = powderpul

2009-06-13T15:07:00.003+08:00

Guys this pic look blurish try to this link.

http://the-unperfect.deviantart.com/art/For-freedom-125751498

It's a safe link just another place for me to post photo only =) cheers

Yeah, yesterday after fyp go down to town meet teo and jeff again. have dinner and coffee chill for awhile then chiao..

Well yesterday jeff drives so we decided to explore certain part of singapore which i nv been there before and seriously i feel like i'm in another country cause it totally don't look like in singapore -.-. **or perhaps just me, country bumpkin haha**

oh well when we are on the way to our destination we saw moon, A BIG BRIGHT YELLOWISH MOON! we wanted to take picture of it but we didn't bring our cam out. so yeah i kept trying to psyco him and ended up we go back and take our gear! and go for night shooting.

But we didn't manage to shoot down the moon due to the time, cause the moon size colour and stuffs already look diffrent, oh well we still can do it other time.

Night photography is fun! but i really look and behave like a nerd cause i know nuts about night photography. Luckly i got jeff, haha he kindda guide, teach and share some photography technique with me.

Initially we wanted to take sunrise but it rain -.- so ended up we sleep in the car for 2 hours. around 7+ we went to botanic garden, and again jeff show me his macro skill and finally i can take macro now, well there is still alot of room for improvement. but at least i can capture something now!

Mambo jambo jumbo bambo bimbo....

2009-06-11T05:01:00.002+08:00

Yeah, just come back from zouk. i was planning to get "wasted" with all the boy today since vivian driving today haha,, but oh well too bad i didn't. i only get tipsy and a lil bit high.

It's fun to hang out with them =), jeff, theo, vivian, esmond and new friend call elden. *pardon me if i spell your name wrongly haha*

i just realise mambo really cool, seriously i need to learn. guess ev wed must hit to the club already. LOL just kidding.. but seriously really very cool..

Finally

2009-06-09T02:53:00.004+08:00

finally i sorted things out already..

lol.. i feel great. and to think about it i'm kindda dumb to lose in this game. should have win this base on my experience. nvm i learn some lesson now in life. in the future no more trust.

Thanks teo and jeff for accompany watch movie today haha.. kindda bored got nothing to do.

tomorrow badminton with jeff, vivian, and theo at 10 -.- pls KILL ME! haha

Fly high to the sky.

2009-06-08T18:39:00.009+08:00

Today when i'm on my way home from school i saw a kite.

somehow i really wish i could be like a kite fly free up to the sky.. care free, feel free, and just fly whenever the wind bring you.

Somehow i still feel troubled. how i wish i could have a day off for my brain.

If i could turn time back, i wish i could do thing right, But

What you have done is done. there is no point turning back and regret about it. I really hope tomorrow will be a good day for me.

Song of the day

David cook - permanent

Another chapter

2009-06-07T10:56:00.005+08:00

I fliped through another chapter of my life, and the new chapter has begin=). somehow i feel great and relief.

lesser burden to think, and as usuall i move on already. no point thinking of problem you can't solve and the person who don't deserve it=)

thanks jeff and theo just love you guys =p..

Oh yeah, today i'm shiffting house. still havent pack my stuffs yet -.-.

Btw stay tune this sat i'm going to take picture of welna. so yeah i will be posting it at glouse.blogspot.com. thanks for your support and hope can recieve some C&C..

Love is crap?? NOT.

2009-06-02T21:03:00.003+08:00

One of the greatest question i have..

should love feel happy or sad?

I don't understand why some people are so selfsih, i got onesenerio:

Mimi(Girl) break up with momo(Guy) already, mimi found new boyfriend but mimi know that momo still madly in love with her and can't get her out of his mind, and what mimi do is to keep momo hang in there and giving momo false hope and lies.

Because mimi know that momo will always be there for her, and what mimi want is love, mimi want to feel love. that's why she keep momo hang in on. Mimi know that she hurt momo alot but she still don't want to let momo move on in his life, because mimi still enjoy love from her new bf and momo.

I asked momo, "why you still don't want to move on, it's been years since she break up with you"

Momo replied "Because i still love her"
I replied "H-A-H-A, what a joke, wake up dude! she fucking cheating on you and kept you hang in, in the middle of no where!"

Momo replied "Love is blind"

I replied "Fine, enjoy your luck-ess romance and happy waittng dumb wit"

even a stupid or retarded person know that mimi is cheating on him and just wanna play with him, Mimi keep telling momo she love him a lot. thats why momo melted when ever mimi tell him that she still love him.

I don't know is it because love is so powerfull or momo is $%@$ dumb.

but for me i will just move on no matter how painfull it is, because i know that it'll be meaningless no matter how long i wait for this romance. because once love is gone it gone for forever.

dear reader,

i just want to tell you guys, you can love anyone, ANYONE in this world but pls open your eye befoe you love someone, think does she or he deserve my love?

MOMO, i really hope you can move on, cause i love you as a friend. it's hurt for me to see you behave like this.

Sorry.

2009-05-29T11:55:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry...
All i want to see is your smile but i fail...

Song of the day
I'd rather - Luther Vandross

HELLOWW 5D

2009-05-25T00:52:00.007+08:00

Hellow 5DmarkII in the house here..

thanks to my mom, she is getting me this baby today..
and i manage to get 100mm f2.8 macro lens as well =).
But i still feel a little bit regret for getting this macro lens instead of the L lens. -.- well there is always a next time for me.

Today it's like a dream come true for me! haha.. =))..

The place where i belong

2009-05-23T15:25:00.004+08:00

i was curious and keep wondering around for quite sometimes what i really want. Finally, i guess i manage to sort out where i finally belong and what i want. leaving the past and moving forward.

Introduce you my monster -.-.. i'm not sure about when, how, and what is the end and i don't care about it at all.. i just want enjoying this moment with you, that i never felt before.
and in my little prayer i always pray, hope that this feeling can keep going on and the lame stuff + crap between us won't off as well =).

Song of the day:
Septemberband - Bintang hati-ku

What is ART?

2009-05-19T14:12:00.007+08:00

What is art? did this question came across to your mind? to tell you guys, it come to my mind every single day.
i try to figure it out with my own wits and the knowledge that i gain.

To look at the picture above some people thinks that the first one look better but surprisingly some love the 2nd picture i post.

This is the point where by i hate it a lots. most people like to condemn the artist, well i'm not say i'm an artist nor a pro photographer but i'm saying. but you can't just criticize other people's works because you don't like it.

It's big different between comment and criticize, i think most of singaporean seams can't get the meaning between comment and criticize right. *this is base on my experience in singapore's forums* perhaps this is culture shock..

what i want to say today is, art is not a tangible stuffs, it's the feel that count. if you can't feel it then leave it or the most you can do is drop comment to help the artist to improve more on his or her works, NOT criticze them because you don't like it.
You shouldn't judge a piece of arts by the rules, there are no rules for arts. by breaking the rules you are actually creating a new kind of art.

sorry if it sounds abit contradicting but i hope readers can get what i'm trying to say.

hope we can grow together day by day =).

Song of the day
I will fly - ten2five

Sunday afternoon.

2009-05-18T20:07:00.005+08:00

Anyone of you guys love the sunday afternoon feeling?, I guess i'm the wierd one, somehow i can feel it and i kinda adore the feeling. I feel so comfortable especially walking down the road with my mp3 on.

I guess this is the moment that can't be describe by words. i think this kind of situation apply in our daily life, why i said so? because sometimes you feel like expressing out your feeling but somehow you can't find any correct words to express it, or should i say there are no words for describing how you feel?

Haha i guess this is the wonder of life. Life is full of mystery which we will never understand it. =) cheers..

Get well soon =)), and i just want to say i adore the feeling.

Song of the day:
David Choi - That girl

Break free

2009-05-15T17:17:00.005+08:00

Some times you feel like breaking free from this wold, away from all the problem we have. imagine there is alternative way to solve our problem that would be great, and life will be easier for us to lead on.

But this is life we are talking about. In reality life is like cleaning shit from shit's pit. no matter how many time you clean, it still dirty and smelly.
**ok this weird for expression but nvm hope you guys understand**

It apply to our life as well, no matter how many time you solve you problem, problem will always come again and again.

So what can we do?, it seams like a dead end no matter what, i tell you it's NOT. We should find a way to solve our problem and try to learn something from it. So that we can grow day by day, face it and enjoy it. basically having problems in life is the main reason why life is so colorful.

Cheerss =)

Hope you recover soon.. =))

Point of life

2009-05-13T22:50:00.005+08:00

Dream, what is your dream?
dream is not as simple as what you think.

Dream is one of the reason why you still alive, because we live for dream =) am i right?

So be firm and know what you want in your life, dream it and make it REAL. nothing is impossible in this world.
Live for your dream because that is all you got.

It's weird for me to think this way. but i can't help it.. I'm falling, i guess?

sharing time!
song of the day:
When a man love a woman - Michael bolton

Friends? or betrayers?

2009-05-13T00:43:00.003+08:00

Friend or betrayer?
this question always pop out in our mind.. a close friend of yours might betray you for his or her own benefits. don't mention about best friend even husband and wife sometimes betray each other for their own benefits.

So this is life, we need to filter out who are our friend, best-friend, close friend, brothers trust your feeling be more sensitive towards everything and eventually you can senses it. well this is how i classified my friends, i do have a lots of friends but i only got a few who i can treat them as my brothers.

btw out with Ivy ho, subway girl and subway girl's friend today. actual plan is to watch movie with ivy ho but somehow we are not watching it.
reason? i don't know why. haha, i guess something didn't went accordingly to what i had plan -.-.. but i do enjoy my day =)

Song of the day:
Something to believe - David choi

2009-05-11T14:51:00.004+08:00

I'm glad we share something in common. this is the reason why me and him clique well.
ps: we are not gay. YES he is just my best buddy.

Even though sometimes we have different perceptive for perfection but we still exchange knowledge that we gain day by day with each other. i'm really glad that i meet him in this school and actually get to know him and eventually become my best nigga.

Special post:
Ivy ho AKA Ho jie ying, this girl recently pop up into my life.
ok about her? she love to act cute when she is webcaming with some one else. period.

Happy mother's day

2009-05-11T00:49:00.005+08:00

Happy mother's day. as always she will be always in my memories.
went for church at 6 today to celebrate mother's day with Lord. since i got no family member in here. haha..

before that went to take picture around pungol area. and i learn something from today photo taking seasion. which is DO NOT wear sleeve and long pants for taking picture cause you gonna sweat like no tomorrow. haha here one of the picture to share. btw i dont know why it look so blurish you can check out at my face book for clearer picture.

ps don't look at me, look at the picture composition and colour, angle and etc. haha C&C are welcome here.

Oh ivy ho ask me to blog about her. here you go. ivy you got your name on my rusty blog. haha..

Song of the day: You took my heart away- Michael learn to rock

HOWDIE mike!

2009-04-22T13:32:00.002+08:00

When i open my blog, i found out 2 things.
1.Super rusty
2.Super dusty.. **okay i'm exaggerating**
Okay i been lazy lately + i'm going back to indonesia for 3month ++ so yeah..

Well, it's kindda suck to have FYP(Final year project) to rush. somemore i'm not very good at coding, even though i got very good teammates but still can't stop the feeling that killing me slowly when we meeting up. **sigh, life**

But look at the bright sight, i'm setting up a onlineshop with a couple friends of mine, we are targeting "guys" market. Well most of my item are T-shirt in very good design and material + it's limited pieces in singapore!!! *houreeeyyyy* so you won't actually bump someone who wear the same design like you in town =))

I'll update again once me and myfriend settle down our stuffs and link =)

Shopping spreee

2009-01-19T09:15:00.002+08:00

I had fun yesterday with yuqi, thanks to her for accompany me yesterday. ok i didn't get a lots of stuffs, basicly i got myself a new jean, new shoes, new t-shirt, and underwear! haha...
so yeah i'm gonna shop again this wed. =)

wheeee,,,, Chinese new year is around the corner man! to think of it time past so fast man! haha well, i wish you guys have a happy chinese new year and hope all your dream come true =)
and last thing i wanna say, more MONEY for this year! =p

The sad symphony

2009-01-09T02:28:00.004+08:00

Life had been pretty much the same, nothing new for this New Year so far
Well.. As y'all know life is about up and down, and mine is definitely not on the bright sight. I wish i could know what’s the hell when wrong with me. i ain't got a clue yet, not even a dot. Well it's really hard on me to keep it in inside myself, i got no other option but i have to keep it to myself.

I don't want to trouble them, cause the only thing i want to see, is the smile on their face. Well at least it make me feel better at least with my present, i still can make them smile and laugh.

I had make a mistake that can't be erase, not even myself, There is no such thing called 2nd chance. Unfair huh? Well that's life, that's how the system works.
So if you got a shoot, aim it well, cherish it. Cause when you lost it you might not be able to have the same chance again.

well i hope my English is improving. so you guys won't have cramp at your face anymore when you guys are reading my blog =). Because my friend told me he never fails to laugh whenever he read about my blog haha.

Well it's ain't any perfect shoots but do you get what i'm trying to say from her eye? it just.. sad, guess i'm gonna name this picture:

The sad symphony

Photographer: Dominic gusti yudhi ongskynaha

Model: Elis

Location:Indonesia.

hope you guys enjoy.

The best i ever had

2009-01-05T02:03:00.002+08:00

yo, just to share with y'all one song
well i'm kindda wierd i been playing the song again and again about 30 times in youtube! lol..
well i cant find the song in imme so yeah i upload this song through youtube =) enjoy peeps.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

2009-01-01T09:18:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR, everyone =)
welcome 2009.

3 wishes that i made before the clock hit 12 am today is,
1.MONEY!
2.MORE MONEY!
3.Hope all my friend and my family always stay happy.

so have you make your own wish yet?

Sick

2008-12-08T22:16:00.003+08:00

I been lying inside my blanket for 2 day. freak,, i can't do anything else beside sleep and watch tv. no appetite to eat at all..

I just feel very week.. hope i will be fine tomorrow. and let's pray that its not dengue fever.

Yesterday

2008-12-04T01:31:00.002+08:00

So yeah, yesterday me ,J ,and Vivian stay over at Jeffery's place.. we play monopoly at his house and i just realize that monopoly got hell lots of rules man! haha.. but still i'm the winner!!!! LAWL!! =p after that we continue with mahjong which i totally don't know how to play at all, i cant even read the Chinese character!! like wth la -.- so freaking pathetic.
well we drinks, eat, and bitching around and then sleep at 5 something, but the first person who knock out is J!!!!! -.- haha..

so the next day we go eat breakfast together at suntac city, the buffet breakfast super awesome, you guys should try it the place located at suntac city convention hall there, one person 10 bucks only. Definitely worth your for your penny.

after we had our dinner, we went to town for awhile, chill out, stoning, and bitching again -.- . after that i gotta rush to school for photo shooting at 4 so we decided to chiaoo together. and today photo taking was very tiring, they didn't inform me that i gotta be topless so you know la when people play mahjong normally like to eat "tit bits" and the problem is i, eat hell alot!!! and i look super fat!!

so during the photo shoot i need to "kek" or you can say flex like super hard, so what i do is, i hold my breath and "KEK", this is the worse photo taking ever! i even sweating inside the aircond room lol!! but it was quite fun la.

oh this photo shoot is for RP open house, so who ever you are coming for rp open house you guy gotta chance to see my big tummy on the poster! haha -.-.. sound so wrong. but yeah..

and good luck for those who just finish their "O" level and "A" level =)

Classic

2008-12-02T01:49:00.004+08:00

Well, i updated www.glouse.blogspot.com with my lousy portrait picture inside. Kinda disappointing with the result sigh... i'm so pathetic..

Btw want to share with you all this classic picture that i accidentally took.. and i just realise one thing, old peoples don't like to take pictures and i got myself into deep shit and scolding when i try to take their pictures.. -.-..

this is the part where old granny meet energy ball = Kamehameha! haha.. the actuall picture will be in my photo blog, do visit it =) thanks..

PS: i really like her pose!!!!!! what can i say? she is clasic! =p

I'm not moving and improving!

2008-12-01T11:10:00.009+08:00

Sucks! i hate myself for not improving! i need to improve more.
My portraits really CMI, pls God show me the way and give me inspiration, and enlighten me with your light.

Sometimes i really wish that my life can be as simple as black and white, simple yet gorgeous in their own way. but i can't because life is so colorful and complicated *sigh*.

well just to share with you all, the song that become dope to me recently.

I'm not moving. i want to get rid from the past, i'm still missing you.

Dumbass

2008-11-27T11:35:00.002+08:00

A few sentence for today for today..
Boys are the dumbest creature in this world, like seriously. They allowed themselves to being fooled over and over again.
sigh

I'm totally ashamed to be a guy.

no hard feeling boys, just want to express out how i feel today only.

Quad champ.

2008-11-26T11:17:00.003+08:00

This is the bond.. different personality, different size, different background
But we paddle with same goal, same stroke, same destination and we do it as a team.

Teammate.

This is the result, breaking history for quad champion in 26 years regatta.

This was the moment that had i been waiting for 2 years!
Gold medal from my coach, respect him hell lots. no words can describe how i felt at that moment

Warning: Last picture content unglamorous moment, so be mentally prepare before you scroll down! haha
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Okay this is the first time i post my unglamorous picture in my blog.. haha
just to share with you all how happy i was at that moment, after i shake my hand with my coach and received 2 of my gold medal =)

Turn shit in to Gold

2008-11-24T08:52:00.002+08:00

Yes! regatta is over!!!!!!!! RPDB SAAA, SAAAAAA, SAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! this is our cheer when we rocked regatta yesterday!
and we had won and achieved what we want, which is Gold medals for ivp, Singapore champion, and mix team!

We had proven ourselves again, and make our coach proud!
non of you should look down on us! remember that!

all i know is, i paddle with the mentality to kill them, i vent all my anger in to my paddle and whack harder and harder i want to win so bad!,and no mercy to them!

The race is over and now i'm in the dilemma which one should i go, as i mention before my heart no longer belong to dragonboat, all i want is concentrate in photography. but now.. seriously i dont know what to do..
God pls show me the way.

last word, i FEEL F.U.C.K.I.N.G GOOD!

Be my wife

2008-11-21T01:08:00.005+08:00

Just to share with you all this song,
this song sang by Tannga it's a indonesian band. but this song is really awesome!

Dear God

2008-11-19T09:17:00.003+08:00

Early in the morning, the first thing cross in my mind is you, i don't know why but you are the only one i really miss now.
It's been years since you are gone and left me alone but the feeling still remain the same for you, and hoping one day I'll see you again. Even though i had a few relationship right after you left me but no one can replace you until now, the only thing i hope is i can see you again.

While I recall
All the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God
The only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need a person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again .

Can't help but think
Of the time I've had with you
Pictures and some memories
You'll have to help me through, oh yeah - Avenged sevenfold

Carbo load session

2008-11-18T11:49:00.004+08:00

Good morning! =)
lets start your day with a big Smile..

Carbo load session, been eating a lot lately, my appetite really like monster! this is for the team!
my abs all gone already, every single part of my body growing big! i need more food for more energy to paddle for this coming race!

let's do it team.

Paddle till your balls drop, Paddle till your pu**y bleed - Andrew
A moment of glory doesn't mean it will last for ever - Qiplex
Let's prove them wrong - RPDB!

MOnkey Donkey

2008-11-14T13:41:00.005+08:00

It's been monkey and donkey year since i update my blog. haha,,, this is so dumb.. lol
well am still alive. nothing special happen to my life lately.

Finally i got my own black paddel. i'm very happy with it eventhough my heart no longer belong to dragonboat, but for the sake of my friend and team i will paddel hard for my last race and prove to those who looking down on us. but will this really the end of my life in dragonboat?

btw guys.. i got antoher blog at www.glouse.blogspot.com, this is a phototblog between me and louis hope you guy enjoy =)
and my nick name is Goose. haha,,

And this is us and our little blog haha..

Let's work hard and pull them apart

2008-09-16T11:13:00.003+08:00

Early in the morning, the sun was burning the clear blue sky.
Everything seams to be very calm, water was clear and calm.
20 crew, 20 different people, 20 different power,
But we paddel with One heart, one stroke, one boat, one destination and one goal.

The battle was fierce, we fight together like a soldier, we won some and we lose some.
Tears fall like the rain in the evening, it's sad.
The goal seam so close yet so far from us, day has passed, seasons gone.
There is nothing we can do now but learnt the lesson.
Next year, by next year we will make sure we kill it all!
Let’s achieve our goal together.

We lose in this race, but we learnt something from there...
Let’s train hard, kill them and PULL THEM apart next year.

Fun and get the party started

2008-09-16T02:31:00.003+08:00

Today was fun. i pon school, meet up with vincent, jared foo, and clement. haha.. it's been awhile since i catching up with them, lol we watch this movie call "Bangkok dangerous" wah damn nice but no story line la..
after that go to The cathay to have our susi dinner! man it's super NICE! haha.. and i got my new shoe too =)
then went to sembawang meet up with colver, chit chat awhile then go home.

btw anyone wanna go zouk this wed? cause we are going to have some PARTY MAN!! haha.. see you all there is anyone of you going there.

camera lover

2008-09-12T08:38:00.003+08:00

Shag Shag Shag,,, what colud be more worse then my current condition? all those fucked up thing happen everysingle day,, as in like they hand by hand come and charge towards me..

i hope tomorrow going to be a better day for me...

i want to take more pictures! and i want to get more and more camera! cause they are SEX!
and these are my Babies =) just simply love them.

Colours =)

2008-09-09T01:55:00.005+08:00

Improvement, satified with my own work. and it give nice colour simply make my day.

love my camera more than anything else..
sample shoots =)

some of my shoots for more you can chek here if you are intrested.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/gusti_ong/

Love Is You - ten2five

Sucks

2008-09-08T09:01:00.003+08:00

Life been going down. hitting bottom of rock damn hard, wondering when i will be bouncing back.
problem come hand in hand together, i really wonder when i can see the rainbow in the sky.
cloudy, moody, all those shit are coming in to my life. i'm dried up, i'm stress up and no motivation for me to move on at all. perhaps this is my luck.

i'm going to close my own door, there will be no rainbow anymore, i'm going to lock this fuck up thing inside of me and let it rot with me along the time goes.

i want to be strong and good, i want my sit!

It just Not my F***** day!

2008-09-07T15:45:00.002+08:00

my life was screwed up! and fucked up, everything goes wrong!
yesterday was an important day! but i screwed it up! i can't paddel well. and all those stuff i'm not blaming anyone, i just feel that i'm super noob and screwed! MAN!
i really want to Be Strong and Good! i really want it! no matter what it cause. i want to be in the team! i want to win and all.

i know life is up and down but wht must on that day? this is seriously fucked up. i nv so angry with myself before. i just feel i'm really useless. GOSH,,

and today i'm falling real sick and cant go for the final paddeling! man just whats have went wrong with me?!! screw me!

hyper + sad

2008-09-03T01:58:00.002+08:00

Hyper, crazy, dick head, stupid, + morron. thats what i feel for today,, Btw i collected my coloursplash flash chakara already its all thanks to Miss,Block yer ** well she insist me to call her block so yeah.. haha., but got abit scratches on my baby, well after i think its okay la as long as i can use it can already. haha..

today pohmin look sad and pissed for no reason. well i still love her no matter how much she throw her temper at me,, really i love her cause she is the only one who understand me most i love you Sista dick cunt bitch what ever you are! haha...

i'm finish.

2008-09-02T03:37:00.001+08:00

i must be out of my mind, for thinking of this! man...
i'm crazy some one help me!

just simply admire him.

Life

2008-08-24T10:31:00.002+08:00

Okay it's been awhile since i update my blog.
well yesterday was lomotion outting, i was kindda excited but once i reach there suddenly i have a feeling tell me that it's going to be a "LONG" day!
haha,, first i don't know a single person over there which is a bit awkward! lol.. and yesterday was like ranning the whole day T.T , but in the end manage to take some shoots and know these 3 guys which is quite friendly we chit chat a bit then they went off.

After that cabbed down to bugis meet with louis they all,, go play pool together. as normal hang out haha,, it was fun to hang out with my niggas. lol... then late at night meet up with pohmin, val, melisa *the bloody cunts!! haha, and wigan...

and today i'm going back to indonesia! wheee.. haha.. hope i can take some nice pictures over there. and PLS STOP RANNING! haha..

recently i really fall in love with cameras! haha espesially my baby!! i bring them where ever i go. lol i just can't live without them =p

Sad

2008-08-14T00:22:00.006+08:00

My baby admited in hospital now.. i'm super worried i hope i can get it fix seriously i love this camera hell lots like totally fall in love when i frist saw her. i think if it spoil i will cry la...
T.T

well i'm 1 years older now! haha thanks to my friend who give me surprise and celebrate it with me! but on my birthday it self i diying my camera, well treat it as the birthday present i give it to myself! haha.. here let the picture talk..

My love

And my friend + my love inside! haha..

Birthday boy and girl

And this picture shall be my nigga! best mate

ANd this is mate play mate in school =) simply love them

Junior.. well you can say i kinnda adore her! =)

And one more good news! haha.... Coach pm me and told me to join senior training for wet paddeling. and guess what its like dream come true! but still i super sad because of my baby camera! =(

Fish eye adapter, i'm falling in love with it!

2008-08-09T00:56:00.004+08:00

This is my 1st role on fish eye adapter- Holga 120 CFN
film use kodak 100..

well i hope i got improve more =) haha.. anyway today i go down tripple D to develope the film again and huallaaa.. this is the result =)
oh louis get his first fish eye2 today at penisula... =) tomorrow me weishan and j going to whack our holga damn hard for the whole day we are going to take picture! haha =)

okay now let the picture talk =)

Holga my babyyy =)

2008-08-07T01:43:00.003+08:00

Say hi to Holga 120 CFN.. =) hi holga welcome to my collection's room! =)

today meet weisan, Jeraldine, Esmond, And evon. first meet weishan and J at cityhall, at first i'm not planning to get this camera but after weisan told me she just got this camera and i was like

"ugghhh i want fish eye camera so bad la" so we go to penisula again to see the camera that i want, but after the uncle told me that its more worth it if i get holgar then fish eye cause i can change the lens for holgar also so yeah, i got my self a holga.

But i totally fall in love with this diana camera but get this holga instead of diana i don't know why.. nvm i will save up so i can get this diana, DIANA wait for me here i come! haha...

should be upload the photo soon, after i develop it.

This is my holga =) name it Blackie haha..

And this is diana that i'm going to get next! wait for me Diana..

NUM Fashionshow 2008

2008-07-30T23:11:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not posting for so long, i in the mid of rushing my PP and tomorrow is the dead line to submit my draft! gee i hope i can pass it!

Anyway this is the NUM fashion show link =) hope you guys enjoy it man...

The interview Part

I look silly, my messy hair gee... haha....

The Showtime

hope you guys like it =) ..

thanks to the producer and NUM =) for this well done video.

WTH!! My school?

2008-07-08T09:27:00.003+08:00

Pls tell me what the hell is this rule!!
For Male
-Attire with offensive messages
-Torn clothing
-Shorts and Singlet( Except during sports activity )
-Dropped waist Jeans, Pants and Bermudas which reveals undergarment
-Sleeveless T-shirts (except during sports activity)
-Long hair (e.g. covering eye-brows, ears or collars, tying of hair is not acceptable)
-Piercing rings or studs on the eyebrow, lips and tongue. Not more then 3 piercing on each ear.
-Outrageous hair style
-Artificially coloured hair (bright colouring)
-Slippers & Sandals without heel straps
-Caps (except for safety reasons)

Tell me what the hell, are these rules?!! they still say enjoy' YOUR FREEDOM' in RP? What kind of freedom we still have now?!
this is totally crap, they treating us like primary school students!!!

okay some of the rules still acceptable but still, if you want to set up all these rules you better get us an UNIFORM for us so we all look the same and Discipline.

sorry no offence.

http://the-abandon.myminicity.com/

2008-07-06T18:09:00.001+08:00

Guys can you help me do something?
Pls click on this link to help me do something pls.
http://the-abandon.myminicity.com/ really thanks a lot. actually it's a game but quite lame.. haha well lame person like to play lame stuff =)

First Day

2008-07-05T17:54:00.002+08:00

Today is the firt day my wet training after so long, only on word SHAG! haha
it's been awhile since last time i paddel with those monkey! super fun and excited. but i didn't put in good efford in it, i injuried my shoulder -.- haha.. super weak. but nvm i will improve more! hahah=p

After training chill out at lousi's bath and everything, then lunch together.. heading to BBQ pit later.. =)

New Baby

2008-07-03T14:37:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went to Zouk with all the NUM boys! actually i dont want to go but vincent said this might be the last time we have zouk party together cause he going NS next week. so yeah..
didn't drink at all cause i scared the next day i cant wake up haha..

Whee.. Finally my parents came back from japan.. and i really want to say thanks for my Dad for being such an understanding Dad. Thanks a lot Dad, I love you..

They bought me a lots of stuff..
1-Watch
2-Bracelet
3-FOODDDDD!!! Yummy haha..

i was quite surpirse that my dad will bought me a Seiko watch, cause he ask me what i want to get from there and i told him, well just give me a surpise and he really did haha!!!!
well not trying to show off just to share with you all, he got me a watch cost 210.000Yen. Around $2688. i was like OMG are you serious!

For me i think it's not worth it, i don't need such expensive watch but still i like it a lot! haha...
and he told me that it's only available in japan but i doubt so cause Seiko is international brand what right?

Okay This is the picture of my Baby haha
Brightz Phoenix SAG009

And i just realise that inside of seiko got a lots of diffrent brand like
-Casio Seiko
-Blitz Phoenix, etc
Wow.. haha...
well here is the link if you all wanted to get new watch..
http://www.seiko-watch.co.jp/bz/phoenix/ph_lineup.html

HTML

2008-06-23T10:55:00.005+08:00

Today lesson is webmultimedia! and today module got some picture which is really look great here to share with you all..

Haha,, intersting right?

Lol, well of course this pictures is not from our module today.. lol i just got this picture when i browse through the net. i think Utt super charming and good looking! haha.. seriously i'm big fans of him!

Missed

2008-06-20T00:56:00.002+08:00

I don't know why.. I miss you a lot Mom.. i really miss you a lot. even though you are not there anymore but still i really miss.
if i can hope for miracle i will hope that i can give you my one last hug. i miss you mama.
Day that i passed are hard without you. i really miss you mom.

Bad habbits

2008-06-13T05:53:00.002+08:00

I went to watch movie with louis they all.. Seriously you all must catch kungfu Panda it's super awesome!!!!!! i feel like watching it again. tiger, viper, monkey, viper!! cool haha...
okay after movie went to media corp to collect my pay with louis wheee =) then cab back to town again meet with sammy they all.. settle my dinner at taka there with lou.....

then went back home bath and get ready to meet up with kevin they all go to zouk! haha..
and guess what i drink again! just very difficult for me to quit drinking sigh!!
i'm planing to make vincent drunk one but ended up both of us super high together haha...
AK really the killer!! until this morning i still got the hang over! even untill now! haha..
well spend quite alot on drinks.. but nvm we ENJOYED thats the prob.. i think when i super high that time i anyhow kiss people le.. inculding vincent they all ba i guess! haha...

well seriously you all not gonna like me when i'm high! or Drunk... what i wanna do i just do it! not even think it twice! haha.. super unglam!
yeah.. finally next week i can start work le! i'm Kindda miss working in NUM for the past 2 weeks when i'm back to indo, i don't know why haha.. but i can't work more for this week sigh cause i wanna rush my PP. sian sian...

so yeah tomorrow i get my lazy butt to move and heading to gym =)

FATS!

2008-06-03T03:40:00.003+08:00

Okay the thing that i hate most is FAT! seriously i miss my abs! =( they are almost gone now.. i can't see tha line any more. sigh i must bear with it! cause i freaking shrink a lot during the fashion show.. and i'm gaining it back now! i eat a lot every day!!! pump all those food in to my body and hope i can get big and fat!

So one more week, after next week i will train back already! i guarentee i will get even more bigger! haha... well i hope so.. but seriously i don't like the feeling when my tunmmy rubbing against my clothe. i feel super irritating! ahaha here i'm gonna upload some st.james picture..

This is the result after eating 50+ over meat ball and 1 big package of sushi! haha =p

now you all can imagine how fat my body now? lol...

Fat increase 110%

2008-05-30T01:10:00.002+08:00

Okay i will list out what i eat today;
For lunch:
-Omlet rice with prawn
-2 Banana coklet waffel
-1Cokelate donut

After school;
-2 KitKat
-1 Box of chocolate

When i reach home:
-2 big Bowl of green bean with durian (super sweet)
-2 box of durian
-2 bbq chiken wing

Now;
-2 bbq chiken wing! haha

i think i gain alot of fats now! nvm i need to pamper myself! i been dieting for so long so yeah no harm after this holida i'm gonna get back my big and lean body back =p.. anyone wanna train with me? do running or swimming together ?

HOLIDAY MOOD! ON

2008-05-29T14:49:00.002+08:00

YoooHoo.. 1 more day then i can go for 2 weeks holiday! woohoooo....
ehmm oh ya,, yesterday i went down to check my mail box and i saw this super cute dog! oh my gosh i can't control myself and i want to go play with it. but he kept on barking at me! i just don't care! haha cause it just a small tiny little dog! what kind of damage he can do on me! =p

and then the owner come down and she just a small little girl and guess what she said
"UNCLE! please don't disturb him later he bite" wahh,,, this is the first time ever got people call me Uncle, all of sudden i feel so shock and funny. do i look really that old untill the extend a small little girl call me uncle?! haha.. and i just realise that TIME is the killer! lol...

today i came class late again, but thanks God i manage to contribute abit for the team, at least i'm not a freeloader! =)

Sunday party!

2008-05-28T02:09:00.004+08:00

First of all i would like to thanks to Shenzi and Ben to give me this oppurtunity again to be taking part of the fashion show, and helping me gaining more experience =) and my hard work all pay off by that day! =) thanks again Shenzi and Ben.

Phew.. finally the fashionshow is over!! haha i been dieting for months!! man!! before the fashion show i diet to the max 3 weeks without rice! man!!! everyday yong tou fu or fish soup! and tuna! super no life!!!

After the fashionshow i straight away run to the VIP area and realese the monster inside of me! i eat like hell! haha... imagine one full plate full of sushi and beef meatball! i think i got intake more then 70+ meat ball.. haha seriously bo pian i been doing low carbo high protein for months!
and now i think my body fucking chui now, haha... but nvm i enjoy it =)

anyway holiday coming soon! wooohoooo.. study 2 more days then holiday=)!!!!
i'm going back to bandung this time. it's been awhile since i go back there, i think got about 5 years? man!!! the first thing i'm gonna do over there is meet up with my friends! haha,,
and if i can i will look for her =), i hope i can meet her this time. just hope that she havent change the address yet. and moved back to bandung already.
Oh ya HTML was super FUN! i totally understand all the shit man. and i manage to take some picture during html lesson!

^$&%*&%^!!!! i'm so dead now! i forgot to do today RJ! shit la.. E for sure. come late, do nothing. shit man! shit! today super difficult la so i decided to give up! and play my psp in the class! haha... sian sian...

Ehh this picutre super old school.. that one when i was sitll in db! haha... i really miss those moment even though we kanna alot of shit but i was really fun the bonding and all the stuffs!
haha well thats gonna be my sweetest memory =)

i'm dumb

2008-05-08T15:08:00.002+08:00

Today i pon school again.. i dont know why i just feel very tired, last teusday i pon because i feel super stress and now i pon again, some more today got UT! sian -.- miss one of the UT already. well.. i must buck up now else i'm really have to retake module! geee!!!
sometimes i really feel very bad for pontening but.... aiyah... sian
COME ON GUSTI STUDY HARD YOU STUPID RETARD NOOB!
haha... it's actually kind of fun scolding yourself..

crazy mode on!

STRESS TO THE MAX!

2008-05-06T01:15:00.002+08:00

Today java was seriously damn difficult!! man!! i totally gave up! and i decided to sleep during the 3rd meeting for 3o mins!! haha..
And the UT sighs, don't even mention about it totally "CHUI" and i submit my work shift wrongly! Ended up i must call Colin to change the time! so sorry for the trouble Colin.
i don't know why i feel so stress lately!
so after UT i straight away rush to workplace.. today was fun! haha.. around 9.55 shenzi come to store to visit us. hmpf..

well i guess i'm going to miss Daniel man! he is moving to CityLink. sad.. he was like my first mentor and friend in NUM=). one by one are going man,, i feel sian work like never as fun as before already.
Around July Vincent, Kevin they all ciao already, they all going for ns meaning i will got lesser and lesser friend to chill out. Seriously damn sian and sad.

well i'm going to request transfer to other store as well. Perhaps with new environment i can work better?
i really enjoy my day that i spent in NUM but thing are not going to be the same as before already. . . hope my request will be approved =)

Seriously a lot of things happen lately. i really don't know how to express it in words but i just feel sad for not being trusted by the person whom i always believe in and trust him. i always seeks for his opinion about every things but.....
well no point doing explanation it will sounds like i just making an excuses for myself only. but i hope time will tell everything. yeah.. hope so.

Seriously i need to know before i even start it..

180 deg

2008-05-05T01:33:00.003+08:00

Haha.. today i going to gym alone again... well i like to gym alone so i can take my own sweet time =) and i realise i change a lot already... i was so naive,nerd,etc that time but
All must thanks to you. thanks that you left me behind, and thanks for all the poison that you gave me!! seriously thanks.
Without you i don't think i can be what i'm now.. lol, to think back again i was so stupid and dumb that time.

Well past is past, i must let it go. haha...

anyway friday was great. catch movie with my PACAR QU! haha... after that meet min-min and her cousin, then we decided go to Balcony to chill out. after that the cousin sent us home =)
well got nothing much to say now.. very sleepy! haha...

turn in soon =)

well i took pic with my PACAR QU but havent edit yet. lol.. me and her just friend dont get wrong idea i call her PACAR QU doesn't mean she is my gf lol =p. i haven't edit it cause i havent install my photoshop =(

Friday.

2008-05-02T00:32:00.003+08:00

Well... i swear i'm not going to any club in holiday eve! super sian!!! before dance i tired like hell already....
Zouk super pack reach there around 9 we tot we could get in without q but it's impossiable! we tried alot of alternative way... but it just won't work! friends not working on that day! sian...
but in the end kevin manage to get guest list for MOS! so yeah we heading to MOS to get our chop but guess what?!

Me, Kevin, and Zisky couldn't get in because of we wearing short pants! fuck them la.. short pants but we still look smart what... geee.. but we just won't give up, we cab to zisky's place to borrow his pants! haha.. we are so desperate.

eventhough the pant looks kuku on be but i just heck care! i just wanna club on that day! after we are inside the MOS, we couldn't dance at ALL!!! we all sweat like hell man! sian... i just can't enjoy myself on that day! i don't even bother to order drinks!.. *^&^#%* totally fucked up!

i need to know, before i fall in love

Jelly

2008-04-29T08:48:00.005+08:00

Yesterday i went to california for myself training, i met quite few num guys inside the gym, i bet they are gyming for the sake of fashionshow. haha.. let's work hard together guys!!!

yesterday super shag i don't know why i just feel so tired,
oh ya, i saw one ang moh damn from hawaii (well that what he said) jocker la he went for sauna then left his pants inside the sauna room and then when the time we go for change he actually not wearing any pants!!! hahaha...

okay i know that's normal but i just dont understand why he throw away hi his pants while he dont he don't have any extra shorts? or underwear?! he is hawaiian doesn't mean that he can go naked around the street!!

heellloo this is Singapore we are talking about now lol.. okay back to the story..
and then there is this Mr.nice guy in cali actually offer him his pants to him, well it's dirty but better then nothing rught?. imagine he walk out there with his naked butt,, i think within 5 mins police gonnna pin him down man! lol.

well today i cabbed to school again.. sian waste my money! i tot we going to have UT in the morning! but i forgot that year 2 having UT after school! lol...
and all my limbs still like jelly2 like that... super shag!

Shoppaholic

2008-04-28T09:14:00.003+08:00

Well yesterday i wanted to go gym with Tasri but ended up we go shopping together! haha..
i was like a mad man, bought alot of stuffs i feel like waste a lots of money on clothing. haha.,,
i must save money now. saving is runnning low =(

I guess todsay i'm gonna skip training agian, because they are doing cardio again which is i don't really like, sigh... i hope they can start gym training soon..
So yeah after school i'll be heading to california =).

Suddenly i feel so fat now, kept on eating and eating... i just can't resist the foods now a day.
when i start eating something, i just like a one big monster just realese from the cage like that eat like no body buisness. sian.. i must control myself now else my body will become more chui and chui! haha...

Today Data comunication again.. super sian.. seriously i don't really understand what the hell i'm learning today. well i guess i must buck up now!!! i don't want to re-take any module in year 3....

oh yeah,, i'm gonna start taking pictures next week, whoooo.. anyone wanna come along with me? go lim chu kang? haha... =)

Talking to you just make my day go woohooooo... =)

Movies

2008-04-27T04:07:00.002+08:00

Well just came back watching movie.. tired sleepy and shag. haha..
i really enjoy today thanks ugh =). and perhaps we can do movie marthon again soon..
well maybe...

hmpf ohh yeah. i'm going to do new tattoo soon but it's uv tattoo i guess i'm gonna put it on my face! haha... seriously i don't know where should i put it, so i decided to put it on half of my face well i hope i can endure the pain =p..

Being with some one you like will make you go "ga-ga", but after awhile i feel bored may be i just so random.

LADIES-LADIES!!

2008-04-24T14:03:00.003+08:00

Yo Good news for all the ladies!
Having problem Looking for nice clothing & Cheap?
well, i'm here to help you slove the problem =) just simply click on the blogroll beside me and you can get in to the link where all the Cheap, Nice, & Good quality clothe. =)

And the most important is NO POSTAGE FEE =)

Shag

2008-04-24T11:05:00.003+08:00

I went for the firstday training for DB, well it's not as tough as i thought and we had before. but i still feel super tired cause, it's been awhile since the last time i do cardio. haha...

i must bulk up now to get big. very slack lately.. motivation, motivation!!!!!!! RAOAHHHHH..

And Today i'm late again for class. come @ 2nd meeting and cabbed down some more.. sigh...
well today faci abit funny2. i hope we can get along with this new faci..

Sorry..

2008-04-21T09:20:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i met JC in the gym, he told me that last friday i was seriously drunk!
seriously i can't really remember what i did inside, so yeah.. sorry if i did something wrong.
shit me.. haha.. i think i should quit drinking from now on! =p

Well today is the day... DB training! Shag, Sian, Boring, Tired, No life. but I LIKE IT =)..
i can't wait to kanna pump by my own batch people (that sound so sick)..
more push up and sit up to come... but i'm ready for it! come on guys! let's bring it on!

every time i just secreatly look at you. but it make me feel good =)

AK is the killer

2008-04-19T21:36:00.002+08:00

Well.. yesterday i went to zouk with zisky and one of his friend =). last night was awesome!!!
i really enjoy myself but... i went off around 1+ why?
this is the reason "AK", zisky told me don't drink too much but i didn't listen to him. haha.. 3 and 1/2 ak make me K.O straight away.
Zisky told me if i drink that he will make sure that before 1am he will send me back home. well he was right?! before 1am, i totally lost my mind!!! haha...

thanks zisky for taking care of me last night. =)

DUMBASS

2008-04-14T02:09:00.002+08:00

I was very dumn today, i wanted to go gym but forgot bring my cloth and pants, then when the time i reach inside cali i just realise that i forgot bring everything. shit me..
i was thinking want to go home or not but luckly i met leisher. he told me to get some cheap shirt at bosini.

so i went there and guess what? the shirt freaking capalang! -.-'' but i don't have any choice so i bought one dryfit. it fit me well but still i feel very awkward i don't why.

well i saw this Fitpro again at cali she was like super cute la, super tan and the most important she is SUPER FIT! look a bit chubby but i'm okay with it. well perhaps i got wierd taste
i like FIT girl! and Tomboyish (i don't know how to spell it). haha i know i'm wierd everybody say that to me. but they just turn me on! =p but too bad lesier said that she got boyfriend already and the boyfriend was like HULK like that (well you can say shorter version of hulk =p), Super Bigsize! lol...

i'm going to sleep soon.. pls tomorrow i can be in school on time

New Item in the House!

2008-04-13T16:25:00.003+08:00

Yeah, yesterday i bought one slim psp cost me $366 thanks to Mel,(Pohmin's friend) i manage to get that price!

hmpf i feel very bliss to have alfian's mother take care of me. it's been awhile since the last time i feel home. really even though i'm back to indo but i just treated my house as hotel. imagine i went back for 2 weeks, i spend 6days at my friend's place. i don't really like to stay in my own house i don't know why.

well i just want to say thanks to ibu and Oom for taking care of me now. haha..

Boring..

2008-04-12T09:16:00.003+08:00

Ughh,, i can't belive that i stay at home yesterday. my plan was going to Zouk but something just cock up and i cancel it. sigh.. super sian. i just rotting at home and watch tv and play game only. haiyah... my friday night ...

I must buck to go gym already. i went to school gym yesterday and guess what? there is one year one student super big or should i say HULK size? i was like OMG!!! i look so small beside him ?! man... i'm so pathetic.
and my fats. don't know why i can't burn them at all. sigh! i need to control my diet again..

I can't wait for the DB intake again. i want to join the HELL WEEK with those year one student. i think it's gonna be very fun! haha.. kanna pump by my own batch people haha..

I want to grow big!
I need more power!

Early bird! =p

2008-04-07T06:44:00.003+08:00

WOW! i'm so early today huh! haha.. well i just moved to alfian's house. but i'm still looking for a room so yeah, if anyone of you got lobang pls tell me =)

well, thanks to him, i manage to pack all my stuffs and moved in to his house. he sure help me a lot and i really appriciate it! =) thanks pa. well Alfian is my god-father. haha..
hmpf this is the 2nd time i stay over night at his house well.. i can't sleep well, cause i don't get used of the feeling sharing one bed with another person. i love my own bed own pillow and own blanket!!!! haha.. they all got the smell of me (ughhhhhh =p)

But i think partially is school starting soon, so yeah i'm getting excited and maybe this is one of the reason why i wake up so early today!!!! i'm getting so excited for my new class. hope i can get friendly classmate and teammate.. i hope so.....

well i guess more pictures going to come to my blog. i think when school re-open i'm going to take more picture and learnt how to take nice pictures!
suddenly i feel kindda sleepy now.. O.o....

ROOM FOR RENT! URGGENT!!!

2008-04-06T04:15:00.003+08:00

Hey i need a room common room or masterbed room,
-Location near mrt startion best is around AMK, Yishun, Bishan, and Sembawang.
-Landlord friendly and easy going
-and the most important thing is AIRCOND! and reasonable price.
-Light cook.

pls if you got any room for rental, you can drop me an e-mail @ dominic88_@hotmail.com . well this is my temporary e-mail add. so yeah pls i need help =(

DANCE LIKE A ROCKSTAR! =p

2008-04-05T05:12:00.005+08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DANCE DANCE DANCE. get low get low and low and low! haha

okay, okay wake up. wake up! haha.. just came back from zouk! today was FUN!!!!
i dance like a bitch inside the zouk! ahah.. cause i'm fucking high today! well i'm not that kind of person can drink! i just drank 4 glass of flamingo ( i don't know how to spell it) and i almost gone! sucks huh!!! but you know what i like very much! haha..

ohh yahh do you guys know that zouk can consider the cheapest place for drinking and dance? before 12 you can get 1 for 1 for any drinks! except bottle ofcourse. imagine they give away 1 for 1 bottle zouk gonna close down within 2 days! haha...

and and, the good news for citibank creditcard holder. there got promotion for it also. 1 for 1 drinks and guess what NO TIME LIMIT meaning you can drink for 1 for 1 drinks untill you vomit! =p! wooohoooo.. super fun right? i'm gonna sign up for card already! ahha... then i can save up a lot of money! =p

Just wanna share with you guys today, was AWESOME! =)

Lazy bum bum bum bum........

2008-04-03T03:27:00.003+08:00

Yeah, i just came back from indo yesterday, well some how i miss those day i spend with Joni in batam. thanks to him he accomapny me here and there. and let me stay at his house for 5 days! haha.. (save money mah) well i really love batam! A LOT! especially the club! "NO NAME"!
super fun! haha.. but the drink freaking expensive O.o.

well there are only few club i like to visit!
1- St.James power station! i love SUNDAY PARTY ALOT! =)
2- PLay! even though i just went there once or twice but i really like the place
3- No Name. i don't know why i like it. but i just like to be in there! haha...
any good club you guys can intro me? haha...

ARGHHH.. i can't turn in early now a days! i don't know why. for the whole entire day i stay in my room do nothing. eat, sleep, play game, eat, sleep and play game again and again and again.
i wanted to go out with my friend they all but i'm just too lazy to move my butt out of my lovely bed! haha...
and one thing i hate most is i'm gaining fats! ughh.. fats fats go away! i'm going to burn them away tomorrow.

I'm on the phone with poh min now.. haha gtg...

2008-03-24T15:54:00.002+08:00

Now i'm indo, rotting in the internet cafe. jeff getting married yesterday so we all helping him out carry this and that, go here and there. SUPER SHAG! 2 days never sleep. and now going to play dota with roki! haha...

well i'll be back by tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. so yeah.. i must start gyming and work now!

DUMB GUSTI, DUMB

2008-03-12T23:01:00.003+08:00

AHH!! I accidentally deleted some of my picture collection! T.T shit me why i'm so dumb?

AND here are all my collection!! taaaadaaaaa.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/gusti_ong/
but of course la some of the pic i haven upload inside yet. due to some stupid mistake i made! sigh* dumb me.. drop in comment if you can. thanks alot =)

Rain rain go away

2008-03-12T15:02:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to zouk.. guess what the quee like super long! but we manage to get the guest list so we don't need to quee up! haha,,,
but it also pointless inside like super duper extreamly pack! we hardly can move our body! i didn't really enjoy it! sian waste my money only! haha...

well after awhile felix, yankai and me manage to get in, or you can say squezee in to the dance floor but guess what happen next! Dominic was hospitalized! something bad happen to him so we rush down to SGH. man.. yesterday just really not our day.

so we wait for him until around 3 something, then we decided to go off.. i stay over night at yankai's house untill now.
i'm waitting for the rain to stop then i'll going to town for gym! sian but looks like the sky still enjoying crying!!! i think the rain won't stop until tonight! sigh!!!

Pictures!!!

2008-03-11T13:21:00.012+08:00

It's been awhile since the last time i update my blog, haha... i'm just very lazy to update it, well i'll try to keep update it everyday start from today. =)

Oh,, these are the picture i took at potong pasir, tell you what over there got a lots of nice view! haha,, i'm going back there to explore more places!!! anyone wanna come with me? haaha...

i went there with alice and we have a great time over there!
well as usuall here are those random picture i took to share with you all:
(well some are not very good but still i like the picture i took =) )
Feel free to drop me comment about the picture? i really need it to improve more =)

This is the picture i like most! guess what it is

Let's go back to the 70's? haha,, this kind of building make me remind of my childhood

I like these view cause it make me feel like home

Let's wall till the end..

She is the one! =)

Big fat ass with one skinny monster! haha.,.

She took that for me =)

Wait for me..

Okay i'm abit sick now.. but still i'm heading to gym later...hope i will get better after work out! ohh this is the result after i work out! haha.. but it still not enough i want more, more bigger and stronger!

by:Tasri

Dinner!! =)

2008-02-22T04:04:00.009+08:00

Today i suppose went down to mediacorps for some breffing but i told them i sick, cause i really don't feel like going down. haha.... then i get myself ready meet up with pa at vivo city.
YAY! he treat me go to marshee (i don't know how to spell it) yeah.. super nice but damn ex!!!! he always spend alot. ahah but thanks pa, i really appriciate it.

on the way there i manage to took some random pic again.. wheee.. =) it's been awhile since i taking random pictures! haha..

I manage to get one nice pic when i'm on the way out! =)

This one at vivo. i like the moon & the cloud a lot..

Will you take me with you?

The end.

110% burn! haha...

2008-02-21T00:54:00.018+08:00

Sunday was fun, going suntan with my girl! haha... and ended up i'm peeling my skin off now over burn, i slept under the sun, how dumb can i be? gee.. i tan for 5 hours. my gosh.. i was so dumb la.. haha but nvm i like my tan colour now even though my face start to peeling of the skin...
yeah today went to gym with godfather, didn't do much today, only do heavy weight and short reps. so yeah.. i need mass!!! i need to grow bigger!!
after that went to his house. and guess what.. he gave me 2 adidas watches! wheeee!! i love watches! haha.. and one crumple bag! thanks a lot pap.... i really appriciate it! =)

Missing my working day a lot. can't wait to start working this coming saturday! haha...

ok here are the pic to share..

The story me and her.

Serously i wasn't ready yet! i look so dumb haha..

Random bangala took for us and look damn wierd here.. sian 1/2 not my day to take pic...

Okay i'm ready now! haha...

Me and her trying to be dumb stay under the sun for 5 hours.

Yeah.. what are you looking for?

Come back to my hobbies again.. taking random pic! haha...

Yeah another random pic i took =).. well i edit it. cant blame i need better camera!

The end.